You roll up your sleeves and prepare your left arm. “Don’t worry, you have very good veins,” the nurse tells you after cleaning the flexure of your elbow, placing a rubber band as a compressor, and palpating. When you tell him what the tests are for, he nods and adds, “We’re all very tired.” It stings.
The verb tire comes from Latin campingwhich meant: to bend a course in navigation, to deviate from the path. Reading María Zambrano, you understand that at the beginning it was not the verb, but the delirium; He speaks of creation as a way of passing, more than from the possible to the real, from the impossible to the true. The true contains the truth. There are fictions that allow you to laugh and cry and your drool and your tears are the flow that you touch.
In his delirium, Don Quixote felt this world that he saw and at the same time created, accompanied by his squire. But he woke up and died, despite Sancho’s request: “Do not die, my lord, but follow my advice and live many years, because the greatest folly a man can do in this life is to simply let himself die, without anyone killing him or any other hand destroying him than those of melancholy.
Marina Garcés says in The time of promise that there are two ways of relating to beginnings: seeking the origin or finding the beginnings, and that the promise is not a discourse; the promise is an action of speech, “perhaps a form of delirium.”
People don’t they say on matters too important, they sign contracts to bind the truth they want; but not so long ago, in the cities, the word was compromising. It was also used formula as a synonym for fiancé for marriage. Cervantes himself, in Romance of the Gypsywrote through the mouth of Andrew: “Young lady, I am allowed to marry, and we gypsies only marry gypsies; save him God for the mercy he wanted to give me.
When was the last time you were promised or promised something? Garcés asks. What are the commitments to yourself?, you ask, to maintain your vigor while waiting for results. Rave is derived from Latin I’m going to be delirious. Read it is to make furrows with the plow in the earth, to plow, thus raveLiterally, it is about getting out of the readfrom the groove. He who deviates from the path goes out of the ordinary, not always for something honorable. Weird comes from rarefew in number, infrequent. Of the capacity of deliriumClosely linked to the ability to see what is not there, as if it were a vein that is pierced and from which blood, secrets and routines are drawn, the capacity for new realities, to begin with, depends largely on it.
He fatigue This is what you feel when you lack strength, when you are tired. The opposite, its antonym, is rest. “I can’t sleep, / fatigue is / like dead grass / through the body,” wrote Nobel Prize winner Jon Fosse. The second dictionary meaning of fatigue is boredom, dullness, and boredom. The opposite is interest. Luckily, your routine doesn’t bore you.
boring comes from latin abhorderived from horrorhair. Boredom and hatred were synonymous in the Middle Ages; according to Corominas, the modern distinction between hate And to be bored It only appears, at least, in the 16th century. There are also routines that calm you down.
the word routine comes from French itineraryand this one from Latin breakupan open path in the forest, and also the participle of rumperebreak. You go up the stairs, you don’t live in a forest, you live in a room without an elevator. There is no way to avoid the steps, but there is no need to break branches with machetes to make a path, and you hear the last word that caught your attention, you pronounce it, like someone singing, so that your neighbors can hear: TREE. Your illness is frightening. Your fatigue does not make your capacity for wonder impossible; and you appreciate it.
Boring comes from the Latin abhorrēre, derived from horrēre, to bristle. Boredom and hatred were synonymous in the Middle Ages; according to Corominas, the modern distinction between hating and being bored did not appear until at least the 16th century. There are also routines that calm you down.
What it feels like to be someone who claims to be one broken seems more unfathomable, more violent than what someone who is alone feels. fatigue. “You are busier than a dream,” said your grandmother, who always lived in the same house and in the same village, where Barrio Fatiga is still located, “because people endured a lot of fatigue to have their little house,” and a street called Bad Mornings, “because when it rained, as it used to rain“On this slope you are muddy up to your eyes.” Maria Moliner gathers in her dictionary what this means bedtime story: something typical of the Andalusians, especially exaggeration. Good exaggerations illuminate. Bad ones become muddy. Enjalmafrom Arabic, means a type of equipment for beasts of burden, that is, for beasts. You celebrate that in the blood that waters your imagination, the beast is not a monster, but a tired animal in your grandmother’s voice, which you still feel. “Save yourself!” he kept telling you while the coronavirus was raging.
“To take care of something or someone, watch over them and defend them.” This is the first meaning of keep. Then, when you get to the second floor, you remember when a five-year-old girl asked you what it meant to defend and you didn’t know how to tell her in her language that maybe it meant protecting her nature, so it’s necessary to know each other, to see each other again.
Asking someone to take care of themselves by saying “take care of yourself” is not the same as “promise me you’ll take care of yourself.” In the latter, you get involved; in the former, you command, the commitment generated is less, you think, as you continue to climb. Pleasure comes from Latin amusing: action and effect of diverting, distracting or directing the attention of the enemy elsewhere. At the origins of amusingSo there is also the DETOUR. In times of pandemic, political speeches spoke of the enemy, even though we were not at war. Kallifatides wrote: “Most of the misfortunes that befall us are due to the fact that we try to live a life that our souls cannot bear.”
To cross the path of distress -of narrowness, of difficulty-, so that everything that brings you the street of bitterness disappear, to reach the third lighter floor, you have to keep the detour in shape, give it a wide path, play as if you were five years old.
TREE It is synonymous with algazara, a voice, of one or more people, which is born from joy. Tumult It also comes from classical Arabic, Hazarahabundance, a word that sounds like what it means. You smile as you put the key in the door, you finally arrive at the fourth floor. The couch is still there, sit down, listen to your pulse. You don’t even have anemia, you’ll know in a week. Be careful, keep believing in your word.
