“I was ashamed to be with my children”

Alvaro Moratacaptain of the Spanish team, admits to having suffered last season in Madrid bouts of depression and panic attacks that influenced his decision to leave Spain and the Atletico Madridand sign for him Milan.

Morata, in an interview broadcast this Thursday by the show Herrera to Cope and in an extract which announced The big gamecommented: “When you’re going through really tough times, like depression or panic attacks, no matter what job you do or what situation you’re going through in life, you have a person inside that you have to deal with. fight every day and every night.

Morata revealed that he had experienced unpleasant situations in the company of his children in restaurants or supermarkets, where he received violent personal attacks that affected his daily life and emotional state. “For me it was the best thing to leave Spain, I couldn’t stand it,” he confessed.

“I had a really bad time,” he continued. Morata recounted the doubts he faced and the help he received: “I thought I wouldn’t be able to put my boots back on and jump on a pitch. But hey, thanks to a lot of people, from Simeone, Koke , Miguel Ángel Gil, my psychiatrist, my coach…”

The current Milan player continued his story: “We are what we see on television and on the networks but often it’s not real. You have to give an image because it’s your job. I spent one really bad time I exploded and one time I couldn’t tie my boots, and when I did I would run home because my throat was closing up and my vision was starting to get blurry.

Morata even saw his presence in danger in the Euro, during which he would end up winning the title of captain of the national team: “Three months before the Euro, I wondered if I was going to be able to play one more match once. No. I knew what was happening to me, but it’s very complicated and delicate. At that moment, you realize that what you love most in the world is what you hate most. .

Everyday situations, like going shopping with your children, started to become a problem: “I was embarrassed to be with my children, to go out… Every time I went out with them, I always had an episode, sometimes without difficulty, with people about something that had happened in previous games. And, in the end, they didn’t want to go shopping either, things a normal father does with his children. There came a time when they told me so many things in front. of them that. I was ashamed to be with them. I was an easy joke, a joke to make the person next to you laugh.

The preview also shows what Morata says about what made him leave Atlético last summer: “At first I thought I would stay and I really wanted to stay at Atlético. I realized it in an interview at I said that I didn’t know if I would continue in the national team because of my age, because of other things outside of football… and some wrote and in my opinion some information was excessive, and I realized that this did not happen to me in Italy.